Friday, October 17, 2014

Bare Faced Confessionals

The other night, I found myself taking a bit of a trip down memory lane. Let me clarify - by memory lane, I mean I spent a solid hour taking a trip through time by looking at all of my Facebook photos. There were many laughs to be had, seeing me in the drunken haze of my college days, all the way back to my awkward raccoon-eyed eyeliner phase in freshman year of high school. Honestly, nostalgia really set in, and remembering all the fun times had me yearning for the past a little bit.

Except...I kind of wouldn't change where I am right now for the world. Hear me out - I am currently only working part-time, I'm living at home after graduating, I constantly have a bank account teetering on the edge of negative...by all accounts, I should be looking back and yearning for the easy, breezy glory days of school. And don't get me wrong, there are some days I'd give anything to go back to the days where all that mattered was sobering up by the time you had your 8 A.M. class.

But there's one major difference between the teenaged Morgan of yesteryear and the Morgan of today, and that's that I am am finally comfortable in my own skin. When I look back at a lot of the good ol' days, it's easy to remember the awesome moments with friends and the first kisses and the late night sleepovers, but it's a bit more painful remember the constant anxiety of not feeling able to fit in, of feeling fat and ugly and constantly unsure of how people perceived me. Are these things I still feel to this day? Absolutely, I'm only human after all. But the difference in my self-confidence between then and now is like night and day.

In high school I don't think I would ever have let anyone see me without makeup, especially when it came to boys. Now? Most days if I'm just running errands I'll throw on some sunscreen and call it a day. I doubt anyone particularly notices, and if a random passerby happens to well who cares? 

I'm far from perfect, and I absolutely still have a million moments each day when I pick apart my faults. I have crooked teeth, perma-dark circles, cartoon eyes and a crooked nose. These things still bother me, but not nearly to the extent they did in high school. I might not yet be 100% confident in my skin just yet, but I've gotten a whole lot closer since my teenage years. 

I'm not terribly sure there's a point to my tangent, other than just being able to appreciate the confidence that comes with age. And hopefully, five years from now I'll look back at this and be able to see how far I've come.

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  1. I love this post! Girls should definitely feel more comfortable in their own skin and be able to go out with no make up on :) I mentioned this in my 5 skincare tips post http://www.itschelsea.com/2014/09/the-top-five-skincare-rules-i-live-by.html?m=1

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    1. Aw thank you so much! I completely agree, I think it's so important for girls to be able to feel beautiful both with and without makeup. And I'll definitely have to check out that post of yours! :)

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  2. I love this post!! So relatable!!

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